In the nine years I've been writing this blog, I've only once turned it over to another author. Today is the only other exception to that rule. My friend, Brian Sager, has a message that is as beautiful as it is urgent. It was written on Saturday, May 9, on the eighteenth anniversary of the birth of his daughter, Meghan Marie. I knew this little gal. Losing her was the worst thing that ever happened to me. Can you imagine what it must have been like for her mother and father, or her two brothers? I can't even contemplate it - and I've been trying, believe me. The forum is yours, Mr. Sager:
Today marks an anniversary of one of the greatest gifts I was ever
blessed with. Today would have been my daughter Meghan’s eighteenth
|Meghan Sager, 2013|
I had many nicknames for Meghan: Meg, Meggo, Magoo
(which morphed into “Goot”, which she hated), Sweet Pea (which she
liked), and often, “the Amazing Meghan”. Perhaps it’s a father’s pride,
but Meghan was, quite simply, the most amazing person I have ever known.
I am very proud of all of my children, but Meghan was unique in her
pursuit of excellence in everything she did. She wasn’t always “the
best”, but she was pretty darned good at anything and everything she
tried, and she tried almost everything. She was good at everything she
did because, no matter what was at hand, she gave it her all.
most of you know by now, Meghan passed away almost a year and a half
ago. I “hear from her” now and then, in the song of a bird, or the
twinkle of a star, a tune on the radio, or the laughter of a little girl
in a pretty dress in springtime. She helped me finish nursing school,
she helped me find a job, and she’s helping me be a better man in so
many ways. Many have said to me “I don’t know how you do it (deal with
the grief)” or “I can’t imagine what you are going through”, and that’s a
good thing, because it’s something no parent should ever need to
understand or have to go through. We do, because we must. That’s the
simple answer. There is no acceptable alternative.
Such a tragic
ending cannot be allowed without something of value to be learned,
something to help others, something to prevent such loss from happening
to someone else. I wanted to share a few things I have learned or maybe
1. Time is limited, so make the most of it. We cannot
know when “our time is up” or when we will lose those dear to us. Get
after that “bucket list” now, not when you are too old or too broke or
too tired. Try to enjoy every moment because there are only so many….
2. MAKE the time to let those you love know you love them. Drop the grudges. Be first to apologize. Be first to forgive.
3. Given the choice between “enjoying life” and “making a few extra
bucks”, choose “enjoying life”. That doesn’t mean call out sick to binge
watch “House of Cards”, but if a unique opportunity presents itself,
4. Love your family (seriously?!?) Sounds like a no
brainer, and I know you do, but what I mean is take a moment to just
look at them and enjoy the wonderful people they are. Acknowledge their
flaws (to yourself and without dwelling on them), but more importantly,
appreciate their strengths and help them build on them. If you were
building a house, you’d want a good, strong foundation and go up from
there, same with a family. Fix and reinforce the foundation and build.
5. Believe. You are not alone in this world. I am convinced more than
ever of a higher power in this world. Common themes of love, kindness,
forgiveness and giving are universal to all faiths. Focus a little more
on the spirit of the message and less on the letters in the message…
6. Clinical depression is an illness, not a weakness, and
is just as serious and can be just as deadly as cancer or heart disease.
It is also far more common than we realize. One in twenty teens will
suffer major depression at some point. Too often the tendency is to
simply medicate. I can tell you personally that strategy can have fatal
consequences. Treating depression with Prozac alone is like trying to
build a house using only a screwdriver. It can be a useful tool, in
conjunction with others, but by itself is often ineffective (or worse)
7. And finally: GIVE. The support we have received from friends and
family and the community has been tremendous, and it is amazing how a
simple card, a hug, or a plate of pumpkin bars can lift the spirit when
the heart hangs low. If you see or know of someone going through a
hardship, reach out. It DOES make a difference! Small efforts can be
huge helps. Don’t worry that now “might not be a good time”, it might
actually be a great time. Just be understanding if the other party can’t
receive your intentions as you would have liked. Remember that they are
the ones going through the hardship and might not have the clearest of
minds at that moment. Find peace in making the effort, it IS the thought
Through the generosity of friends and family, we
have established a memorial fund to honor Meghan. Among the goals of the
fund is to advance awareness of depression among teens and advance the
spirit of kindness and caring in our community. A key part of this is
the Meghan Sager Memorial Scholarship, which is issued annually to
Goshen seniors who demonstrate several of the same traits Meghan had,
such as academic achievement with an interest in sports, languages,
music, theater, or volunteerism, but above all, have consistently
displayed exceptional kindness and caring for their fellow students and
Last year we awarded two $1,000 scholarships to two
amazing young women and look forward continuing this spirit of giving.
This fund is now facilitated by The Community Foundation of Orange and
Sullivan. Please consider including the Meghan Sager Memorial Fund in
your charitable contributions. Thank you!
Here's a link to make a donation to the Meghan Sager Memorial Scholarship Fund:
You'll never know how much I adored this kid.
Still we will remember Mama's little girl.
|Autumn 2005: Miss Meghan reaches for the lost chord while two |
devoted admirers look on in wonder and awe.